You put me in bed and promised that you'll be back. I slept okay and woke up with a hope that everything will be fine. Packed my stuffs and left pan pac with an easy heart. Board a cab. Misses you. Called you. No response. Sorry? What does it mean. Don't ruin your cny. Okay. I wont. Yet. Again.No response. This is killing me softly cause of 'what if?' 'why?' 'what happen?'
You left me in suspense, and this is so wrong. Can you do something to me? Tell me? Stop your lying. Come back to me. Call me. Message me. Something. It's unfair. A while ago we hugged and kept pinky promises. Less than 24hr you vanishes with your promises.I should have never let you go. How I feel. You're even more mean than me. Mummy said that you told her I've nvr called. Because all along I know if I called I get this. Then you all blame me for not calling. I'm human I've feelings too. Hopefully i did not ruin your cny. Because I cried through it. You ignored so that you could have a good one while me ? Cny is coming to an end. Talk after cny you said. Will you even do so. Will you ? Enough of tears and heartache throughout festive seasons.
I had a dream this afternoon
I was in the toilet and I can't squat. I saw you throwing temper at me. Lost my balance and I gave way. I fell. Scene changed from toilet to a hallway lobby. I can't open my eyes, face facing floor. Throbbing pain on my head. When I slowly open my eyes , I saw alot of blood around flowing profusely. You're there. Lost. Looking for help but no worried look on your face. I was sent to the hospital , you was with me . You told me if I eat those medicine. You'll stay. I said I'll fall again that badly so that you'll come visit me and you'll stay. I hope this dream come true. So I'll see you