smitten

2012-01-31T20:38:00.001-08:00

Daddy knocked my door, he said.
什么事要讲、爸爸担心你你知道吗？
I gave him a nasty reply. Sorry. But my heart do ache.
我知道.

2012-01-31T11:12:00.001-08:00

超痛...
Mummy. 真的很痛...

2012-01-31T11:04:00.001-08:00

Please I beg you please

:'(

2012-01-31T11:02:00.001-08:00

My mum wanted to call you and ask you bout small lil things but she wouldn't dare. Our biggest fear had came true. Things that I'm sorry and I can't hide my true feelings from her. She believed in you. Till now. She said. 你只是一时想不开. Mummy:'(...
My mum is a middle age women.having mild depression. She treated you like a son and someone whom can relate to. Talk to her if you can. You can hate me but don't bring our past on to her. You said she will always be someone dear to you. I hope you really treat her true. She needs someone like you to talk to. Please. Free give her a call. Festive season greet her. Birthday wish her. I'll appreciate that. She love you as much as I do. Even more maybe. Please don't ignore her like you promise you won't although i don't know what promise lies any meanings to you. Just please. I've got nothing else. I just want her to be happy. Pls make it come true :'(

2012-01-31T10:42:00.001-08:00

You've reached voicemail no. ..............

2012-01-31T09:08:00.001-08:00

And you'll be my boy

1 FEB

2012-01-31T09:07:00.001-08:00

And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

2012-01-31T03:28:00.001-08:00

You put me in bed and promised that you'll be back. I slept okay and woke up with a hope that everything will be fine. Packed my stuffs and left pan pac with an easy heart. Board a cab. Misses you. Called you. No response. Sorry? What does it mean. Don't ruin your cny. Okay. I wont. Yet. Again.No response. This is killing me softly cause of 'what if?' 'why?' 'what happen?'
You left me in suspense, and this is so wrong. Can you do something to me? Tell me? Stop your lying. Come back to me. Call me. Message me. Something. It's unfair. A while ago we hugged and kept pinky promises. Less than 24hr you vanishes with your promises.I should have never let you go. How I feel. You're even more mean than me. Mummy said that you told her I've nvr called. Because all along I know if I called I get this. Then you all blame me for not calling. I'm human I've feelings too. Hopefully i did not ruin your cny. Because I cried through it. You ignored so that you could have a good one while me ? Cny is coming to an end. Talk after cny you said. Will you even do so. Will you ? Enough of tears and heartache throughout festive seasons.
I had a dream this afternoon
I was in the toilet and I can't squat. I saw you throwing temper at me. Lost my balance and I gave way. I fell. Scene changed from toilet to a hallway lobby. I can't open my eyes, face facing floor. Throbbing pain on my head. When I slowly open my eyes , I saw alot of blood around flowing profusely. You're there. Lost. Looking for help but no worried look on your face. I was sent to the hospital , you was with me . You told me if I eat those medicine. You'll stay. I said I'll fall again that badly so that you'll come visit me and you'll stay. I hope this dream come true. So I'll see you

2012-01-29T01:03:00.001-08:00

I have died everyday waiting for you. Darling don't be afraid I have loved you for thousand years. I love you for a thousand more.

2012-01-27T01:07:00.001-08:00

一直心痛的感觉、不断的提醒自己有多难过。而却这是事实。
为什么两个相爱的人不能在一起？
不要。我不要看到比此过着自己的生活。一直到了有一天、结婚了、心中还有对方而后悔。我不明白为什么两个爱比此的人就不能在一起。:'(

Happy lunar new year

2012-01-22T22:56:00.001-08:00

2012-01-22T22:55:00.001-08:00

Double rainbow and fireworks is just pure coincidence and it's not fate or meant anything

2012-01-22T22:25:00.001-08:00

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors
Oh, and life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time

And I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I've never known the loving of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand

There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time

So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singing
Funny, when you're dead how people start listening

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life
Well, I've had just enough time
So put on your best, boys
And I'll wear my pearls

2012-01-22T06:30:00.001-08:00

我等你你会回okay ?
:'(
你说的
:'(

2012-01-21T22:37:00.001-08:00

Give me a call :'(

2012-01-21T10:15:00.001-08:00

一个人、很害怕

2012-01-19T11:49:00.001-08:00

想...
死

2012-01-19T11:36:00.001-08:00

What did I just saw? My eyes played tricks on me ? :'(

2012-01-18T20:16:00.001-08:00

In another life, I would be your girl

2012-01-12T19:25:00.001-08:00

Daddy pat me head , I opened my eyes. My maid is painting
Saw those green walls. He said.
Is this colour okay ?
Do you like the colour papa chose for you?
I nodded. Too shocked. :'(
Green
Look alike green

I need to get out of your world instead of living in em. 我已经很辛苦了,为什么...

2012-01-12T16:02:00.001-08:00

讨厌这个家、吃饭也不敢、上厕所也不能。不开心连一点安慰都得不到。没意义。

2012-01-11T10:21:00.001-08:00

他们对我说、
他有了女朋友就是 gameover 了.
:'/

因为没有勇气，所以眼睁睁放手真爱无能为力。

2012-01-10T06:08:00.001-08:00

放手吧

2012-01-10T06:04:00.001-08:00

突然才觉得你已经离我很远

你说什么事能找你
可是你在哪里

找到了，你也会不睬

2012-01-03T01:54:00.001-08:00

哭着哭着。
到了panpacific的网站。
定了间一样的房。
我是不是很傻。

是真的

2012-01-01T16:11:00.001-08:00

水瓶座可笑却笑不出的悲哀曾经似乎很多人都认为，水瓶座是很花心的。不懂得什么是爱，事实上真的如此么？
几乎每个水瓶座的心底都有着一段刻骨铭心人间记忆，一个永远无法忘记的背影。那也许只是极其短暂的两情相悦，只是一种单恋，或是一种只存在于虚幻空间。一切看起来是那么平静，那么和谐。没有惊天动地，没有海誓山盟，没有花前月下，没有浪漫，没有誓言，没有温度。水瓶座的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永无燃点。

水瓶座不容易喜欢上一个人。有人说水瓶座对伴侣的要求太高，其实并非这样，水瓶座注重的是感觉。只是那么轻描淡写的一眼，那个人已经吸引了水瓶的所有注意力，从此目光便无法转移。用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记。水瓶座有时容易，觉得迷惘。在对方没有非常明确地表示感情时会退怯，觉得爱情是两厢情愿，不想勉强对方。显得很被动，忽冷忽热，犹豫不决。在没有完全确定前，决不轻易付出感情，因为怕失去。也许是缺乏安全感，也许是对自己的保护，也可以算作是一种自私。

一般水瓶座的好朋友都是经过很长世间的考察的，不仅仅是几年，而是十几年。一旦被水瓶座当作好朋友的，会赴汤蹈火掏心掏肺。

水瓶座在人前总是一幅无忧无虑没心没肝的样子，不想别人看见自己的悲伤，那样会有不安全的感觉，总是在无人的地方暗自落泪。

但是，尽管水瓶座装着多么不在乎，看都不看一眼。可是对方说的每句话都从耳朵进去，没见出来。对方提的任何要求，水瓶座统统照单全收精心尽力，决对不会有半个不字。完全成为一个爱情的奴隶，脸上还装酷无表情，整个死要面子活受罪。

这种情况下，如果对方使点阴谋诡计，刻意疏远避而不见或是视而不见，电话不接或是哼哈敷衍等等，水瓶会给整疯了，开始会想是什么自己地方做错了，说错话了，然后拉下面子主动讨好试探。不用多，碰壁两次，水瓶座就会有自知之明了，不会再去想是为什么会这样，也不想知道了。心里会想，原来是对方讨厌自己，不想见到自己。明白之后，就是绝对的安静了。

水瓶座一旦付出，便是彻底，不可收回。感情投入的越多越是伤的重。最擅长的是难为自己。不想对方难过，只好让自己难过。总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。不知道，受伤的其实是自己，只是不知道如何表现出来。
爱，这个字对水瓶座来说，太沉重珍贵了，无法用语言诠释。一旦说出口，犹如远古的文物，被发掘出土暴露于空气中，变得面目全非，失去本来的价值。所以，不轻易说。
只需一次，水瓶座便把一生的精力耗尽，只因执著，便落得伤痕累累。那段感情如强酸腐蚀着那颗麻木的心，穿了一个洞，再也无法弥补。只需一次，水瓶座便不再幻想，于是狠狠将自己摔碎，拒绝熔化拼凑。因为怕熔了记忆，怕熔了那个远远的背影，怕熔了自己千年的期盼。之后，水瓶座依然谈笑风生，依然开朗豁达，继续着一段接一段的新感情，重复着一切。
人们都说水瓶花心，见一个爱一个，水瓶座会哈哈一笑，说“哪有？冤啊！”。其实心里在滴着血，脸上却得笑的灿烂，安慰自己“我是谁啊！哪会那么弱呢！”
有人说水瓶座太冷酷太自私，自以为了不起。可是谁又了解，水瓶座的心，容量很小，只能有一个，且不具修改性。除了那个人，其他所有自动归为一种程序。
因为无法虚伪，所以甜言蜜语都吝啬给予。因为天真，所以至死之前仍在等待。因为没有勇气，所以眼睁睁放手真爱无能为力。
当看到一个瓶子在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，请千万不要被迷惑，水瓶总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与悲伤。其实并不像看到的那么快乐，同样的，也不像看到的那么悲伤。只是悲伤时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当水瓶快乐时，悲伤又不肯轻易放过。
只有真正懂得水瓶座的人，才能看见眼底那一缕似有似无的哀伤，才能明白是什么让水瓶如此的义无反顾，是什么让水瓶变得如此忽冷忽热捉摸不定，才能体会水瓶的坚强只是竭力掩饰的脆弱。
星相上说，水瓶座往往不被所爱的人珍惜。我想，是为什么呢？也许答案就在心中，只是水瓶座的本性不愿承认而已。

This is the only way to channel all my thoughts

2012-01-01T15:50:00.001-08:00

Recently it's so tough to have a proper rest. Been weeks, insomnia nightmares dreams...
Now, just woke up with terrible heartache and started tearing. What a terrible dream.it's too surreal. Too scary and it hurts. Hurts too much.
Stop haunting me every night...
Everyone likes to tell me I can't try to keep everything to myself because one day I will get berserk.
I know it clearly. But what can I do.
快不行了

2011-12-31T13:07:00.001-08:00

I went home and saw my dad around 4 plus as usual. He said
Just came back from flight and now you're out? Have fun?? ( with a smile )
I said of course ! Throwing a smile back at him

I guess he's used to my nonsense. Live you daddy

Happy new year

2011-12-31T08:09:00.001-08:00

2011-12-30T16:49:00.001-08:00

It's new year eve, heading for my last flight of the year. It's quite a struggle , 2011 has been quite a disaster however I am unable to embrace 2012 with excitement. Because I foresee it to be another bad year for me, and also afraid that it will be the end of the world. So silly. Anyways New year resolution of 2012 is simple. Just want to real happy and to love myself.

I pray for a better year ahead

2011-12-30T02:48:00.001-08:00

I skate twice this week, and today I skate to and fro twice of my usual route.
Rewarded myself with chef salad and black forest frappé
Felt like effort went down the drain.

2011-12-29T11:14:00.001-08:00

Time will be able to heal my wounds, but nothing can heal the pain memories inflicts.
Everywhere I go, I see you
I was in Taiwan, saw the same dog at that same shop. Ate the same food. Walked pass the game stall where you played the air gun balloon game in shillin.
I was in ecp,blading is the only way to make me stop thinking, no longer now.
I was at summerbreeze. (:
I went adelphi, I wonder why I have to be there.
And many more...
Now I know what they meant by you always look on the happier side when you get flashback of memories.

I found the courage to re-dl whatsapp. But things happened.
Why can't even the last few days of 2011 be kind to me.

超不开心

2011-12-29T01:03:00.001-08:00

Give me the courage

2011-12-25T12:33:00.001-08:00

If you ever leave me baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
‘Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don’t have it anymore.

There’s no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I’m makin’
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walkin’ out the door.

Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

I’ll never be your mother’s favorite
Your daddy can’t even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I’d be doing the same thing
Sayin there goes my little girl
Walkin’ with that troublesome guy

But they’re just afraid of something they can’t understand

Oooh well little darlin’ watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
If that’ll make you mine

Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

Don’t just say, goodbye
Don’t just say, goodbye
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
If that’ll make it right

Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...

Merry Christmas

2011-12-24T13:10:00.001-08:00

I wish all my dreams will come true

181212-191212

2011-12-19T05:41:00.001-08:00

翻开随身携带的记事本
写着许多事都是关于你
你讨厌被冷落习惯被守候
寂寞才找我
我看见自己写下的心情
把自己放在卑微的后头
等你等太久想你泪会流
而幸福快乐是什么
爱的痛了痛的哭了哭的累了
日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好像上瘾的毒药
它反复骗着我
爱的痛了痛的哭了哭的累了
矛盾心里总是强求
劝自己要放手闭上眼让你走
烧掉日记重新来过
重新来过

2011-12-18T12:34:00.001-08:00

笑着哭
这一刻起我不再是我

Taking a leap of faith

2011-12-18T11:43:00.001-08:00

Every leap of faith begins with a choice to follow your heart and a belief that you can make it. Sometimes the bigger the leap that we are undertaking the more likely that it will take some time to land firmly.

"I took a last good look at it, I have to walk away"

2011-12-18T00:29:00.001-08:00

Today itinerary was. Colourful xiao long bao

:'(

2011-12-17T23:01:00.001-08:00

最完美的结局。

2011-12-16T17:06:00.001-08:00

我和你
就像是有心灵感应
发生了什么事
我都会感觉的到
只差我的双眼去确认
我想的是真的

A note to myself

2011-12-11T14:59:00.001-08:00

Enough is enough stop being an idiot, please

2011-12-04T10:50:00.001-08:00

本来很认定是对的答案
到了夜深人静的时候
恍然害怕自己做了人身最错的择

2011-12-04T08:35:00.001-08:00

I wondered what kind of trouble or deep shit I've brought myself into this time round.
Hopefully I will know what I want in my life rather than going round the circle.
你一定要开心
对不起

2011-12-02T01:08:00.001-08:00

我不敢去看、

A Day to remember.

2011-10-12T16:21:00.001-07:00

Take the magic pill and go to bed.
You will have a good night sleep,
Silly girl

FML

2011-10-07T08:10:00.001-07:00

My life is so fucked up. FUCKED UP!!!!!

2011-10-07T04:36:00.001-07:00

我走在大雨中、全身都淋湿了、我也不怕

不能怕

2011-09-24T23:52:00.001-07:00

Just when you feel like no one knows bout how you feel and no one cares bout you.
You've got a missed call.
From mum.

2011-09-23T11:01:00.001-07:00

Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending, like we never had a chance.
Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

2011-09-22T16:09:00.001-07:00

今天到底是什么了？
头痛，手痛，心也痛。
不想变成从前那个疯子
又不知道如何做选择。
如果你正在读的话、不需要担心
我还很好
真的

2011-09-19T09:38:00.001-07:00

喝酒开心

睡吧、明天会更好

2011-09-16T10:23:00.001-07:00

最近我变成了个爱哭鬼
心里起伏时好时坏
好辛苦，很痛
我对人霸道无理
恨自己自私
不能控制后到头来又是哭

2011-09-15T13:53:00.001-07:00

傻瓜、心痛

2011-09-09T05:30:00.001-07:00

I had a dream and it made me realized..

2011-09-06T11:00:00.001-07:00

空溜溜

2011-07-11T06:28:00.001-07:00

把自己关在房里
哭
看着镜子里的我
就像是个疯子
终有一天、我真的会崩溃
对不起 mummy
我就是放不开、什么东西都往心里堆
不能怪别人只能怪自己

2011-07-08T08:58:00.001-07:00

*****,***** ):

2011-06-06T20:01:00.001-07:00

快要疯了，6am 才睡着。8am 就醒了！头痛肚子痛！

Why?

2011-06-06T19:53:00.001-07:00

I'm finally doing my colonoscopy and gastroscope tomorrow because my stomach is getting from bad to worse recently. :(

2011-06-05T17:08:00.001-07:00

For almost 2 weeks, my body clock automatically wakes me up at 6am. It is so tiring, probably I should increase my sleeping pill dosage.sigh. My work is driving me crazy.

*****

6 black box

2011-05-06T03:59:00.001-07:00

2011-05-06T03:58:00.001-07:00

It will never be the same. Just like this space , became so empty and quiet.
I've never teared that much for years.

2011-04-30T14:11:00.001-07:00

On this special day

2011-04-10T10:11:00.001-07:00

平常
总是和大家嘻嘻哈哈的
可是每一个的笑容中的成份
一定会有那麽一点点的悲伤
可以说水瓶是矛盾的
有时
在悲伤到不行的时候
还是会很努力的绽放笑容
水瓶就是那麽喜欢勉强自己
总认为自己比别人坚强
而忽视了自己的伤痕

某种程度上来说
水瓶是健忘的
水瓶会因为你不回信息而生气
可是
当你回了信息
水瓶会忘了自己本来是多麽的生气
然后笑着回覆
这样的事情一直重複
可是水瓶就是无法阻止自己
这也是水瓶的矛盾吧？

水瓶真的有很多朋友
当然也承受过背叛
出于矛盾的心理
就算被背叛过
还是会把对方当成朋友
再一次被背叛
再一次的原谅
总把别人想得太脆弱
把自己想得太坚强

我并不是个很相信人的水瓶
也不算不相信人啦
只是习惯把不开心的事跟自己说
总是对朋友很好
却拒绝掉别人对自己的好
总认为自己很坚强
有什么事都能自己解决
就算流了泪
也装着没事

水瓶
就是那麽爱逞强
可是谁也不知道
水瓶想要的
只是在水瓶说他很好的时候
有人可以跟他们说：“我知道你并不好。”

3am;

2011-03-30T12:54:00.001-07:00

The cab driver asked ; is there any difference between 遗憾 and 后悔?? And he told me the whole story bout he and his wife, between whether to get divorce and start a new relationship with this girl he just met or hang on to the marriage cause of the 2 kids but with no more love and commitment towards one another. He said throughout these five years he's just like a car without fuel which made him feels very empty.

What he had mentioned just kept me thinking, I can't sleep.

Sigh. Hopefully my advice do helps and his kid will not suffer like me. 孩子终是最无辜的.

2011-03-25T18:49:00.001-07:00

生病了好辛苦，可是为了钱还是得上班。

2011-03-18T10:12:00.001-07:00

Nightmares haunting me for consecutive three days. Ranging from getting chased being strangled, car, relationship and work. It's all so scary. And I hate the feeling of waking up feeling lost and yet everything is so surreal. In fact i guess all these stuffs has been troubling me alot in reality.

如果时间可以倒转，我希望当时我们可以快乐一些。可以更充分利用在一起的时间做比此想做的事。不要争吵不要打架。珍惜对方。如果当初可以改变你的脾气、如果我可以控制我的态度、如果以上的如果都能实现，现在的我们是不是会很快乐呢？
爱情长跑一点也不容易。
我现在需要的是很大很大的勇气。
是你的终究还是你的。希望这是真的。

2011-03-17T12:11:00.001-07:00

I realized. Last time. My life was just all bout you.

2011-01-30T08:39:00.001-08:00

I had a bad day

In Paris

2011-01-22T12:44:00.001-08:00

Balenciaga disappoint me, Chanel classic out of stock, Prada iPhone case unavailable. I still thought I could get smthg for myself as a birthday gift. Sigh. Don't know if it's a good or bad thing.
Anyways can't wait to be back home and I'll be clearing leave(; cny and birthday then valentines. Triple yay-ness

2011-01-19T00:32:00.001-08:00

My baby :(

2011 has not been kind to me

2011-01-10T02:39:00.000-08:00

San Francisco.

2010-12-13T08:55:00.001-08:00

I'm pretty in love with this place. Big portions of food. "how are you?" everywhere. Aeropostale ; A&F; American eagles ; Victoria secrets; Forever 21 (; holidays Xmas sales everywhere.
Am visiting the fishermans wharf and golden gate bridge in a minute!

2010-11-25T06:19:00.001-08:00

I feel like crying so helpless!!! :( :(

2010-11-22T11:11:00.000-08:00

i need to see a sinseh so badly, my arms hurts alot alot alot. i want to be back home

here i am in Dubai

2010-11-22T10:46:00.000-08:00

back from Cairo today and i braved the Sahara desert ,its amazing
taken by iphone..

2010-11-18T03:20:00.001-08:00

还没有上班就想着要下班. Sigh. 7 days

2010-11-17T06:09:00.000-08:00

my flight tomorrow is to Dubai / Cairo, one of my top destination and also an item from my wish list on the side. hopefully i have the time to visit the pyramid but with no camera ):
safe flight kahmun

Narita with qlish & derek

2010-11-15T00:59:00.000-08:00

bento for dinner

caramel coffee

bought my first rainboots

all my allowances goes into all these

favourites!

ramen for lunch

2010-11-11T01:04:00.000-08:00

我很胖，怎么办？

2010-11-07T03:32:00.001-08:00

2010-11-03T15:47:00.001-07:00

Dread of going to work. Hate the SBCU to Perth that disrupt my roster and I'm so sleepy. Sigh. How I wish I fall sick.

2010-11-03T03:26:00.001-07:00

we were chatting before flight and this senior told me i should really learn how to save up more money or not by the end of fifth year i will be left with nothing but just piles of useless branded goods at home. I was so inspired by her, just three years she bought a studio and a piece of land in west msia. she is even thinking of buying oil plant too, can likely be a tycoon!
Ive been trying hard to save for close to a year but its near impossible to achieve that not even a studio at my favourite district 16.then i went to calculate, i found out my expenses went up x3 compared to last year * gasps* all these while i still thought i saved quite a sum of my pay but its not enough. no, i cant spend my money this way anymore i should start the real saving by next month!!

one in a million

2010-11-03T02:27:00.001-07:00

我的camera壞了 :((

2010-10-29T00:30:00.001-07:00

favourites

2010-10-29T00:17:00.001-07:00

2010-10-27T10:56:00.001-07:00

I hate drinking and being sober, Alone

You hurt me with your words.

2010-10-26T11:20:00.001-07:00

2010-10-23T15:26:00.001-07:00

So terrible I feel like crying

2010-10-23T15:00:00.001-07:00

It's my first time. Getting to the airport alone. Drunk. and I don't even know how I manage to get there. Say hi to hong kong. 3 days of r&r by myself

I'm glad that you 'like' it

2010-10-22T16:12:00.001-07:00

I was in a happy mood when I got home after a tiring flight from Melbourne. But not until I saw the singtel bill on my table. Freaking outstanding amount of $521.48. I have no idea when did I ever ever ever not pay my bills. Yes I do have late payment but where does this 500 over come from. Is it due to canceling their line but my contract have ended. I'm so not gonna pay for it yet I don't know how to deal with it.they should not just sent a letter with the amount due without stating anything else . Now it make me can't sleep! Sigh

in Munich

2010-10-15T07:45:00.000-07:00

bought my sunglasses ;) happygirl now cheap beer

yummy pork knuckles with beer is perfect for lunch

2010-10-08T05:12:00.000-07:00

i spent 2 hours reading through all my past entries word by word, they made think through alot of stuff. sigh, i hate growing up
anyway ive got a 10 days leave on november, can anyone tell me what can i do and where to go? i am all by myself..

in Maldives..

2010-10-04T12:16:00.001-07:00

Finally I've got a flight to Maldives tomorrow but it's rainy season and high chances of raining over there. My period comes at the wrong time too. Damn it.

Angels cry

2010-10-04T11:51:00.001-07:00

Shouldn’t have walked away
I would have stayed if you’d said
We could have made
Everything ok
But we just

Threw the blame
Back and forth we treated love
Like a sport the final blow
Hit so low
I’m still on the ground

I couldn’t have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Supernatural love conquers all
Member we used to touch the sky

And lightning don’t strike
The same place twice
When you and I
Said goodbye
I felt the angels cry

True love’s a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Come on babe can our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon make it right
I’m on the edge just trying to survive
As the angels cry

Limitless
Omnipresent kind of love
Couldn’t have guessed it
Would just up
And disappear in a whirlwind

Here I am
Walking on this narrow road
Wobbling but won’t let go
Waiting for a glimpse of the suns light

I know I can stand just pull me back up
But there ain't a hurricane its just US
I'm willing to live and die for our love
Baby we can get back that shine

Cause lightning don’t strike
The same place twice
When you and I
Said goodbye
I felt the angels cry

Cause true love’s a gift
But we let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Come on babe can our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon make it right
I’m on the edge just trying to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin you
Don't allow our love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reachin for you (2x)

Lightning don’t strike
The same place twice
You and I
Said goodbye
Felt the angels cry

This true love’s a gift
We let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

2010-10-04T03:44:00.000-07:00

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

2010-10-03T01:56:00.000-07:00

this trip is finalised without an itinerary,
i am going to reach there and do whatever i like whenever i want.
i found the most perfect hotel and i will bring along my bathing suit for a swim.
i will chose a new storybook at the airport to bring along with me.
and enough cash to just spent without hesitating.
21 days to go..

2010-09-14T13:51:00.000-07:00

things which happened tonight just says Welcome to Amsterdam.

2010-09-01T23:24:00.001-07:00

My dieting works! I lost 4kg and hopefully it could last a little bit longer before I start to binge on food again.